Xadus was wandering around while Markiss went off hunting. He thought to come along, but decided to let Markiss go alone. He figure he come along next time to help him, especially since he could use his Cleric powers again. While he was wandering, he saw Nine sitting by the river staring off. He frown some and would figure he go talk to him. Especially with what happen the other night, he wanted to apologize for it. He move and sits next to Nine, when Nine saw Xadus he tensed up.
He suspected Markiss not far "Go away. I already told your love toy that I wasn't going to bother you guys. Besides you have done enough." he state sternly to him.
Xadus would frown still "I know, but I came to apologize. I really wasn't trying to hurt you, I wanted to help. I wanted you to have someone, you are always so alone and unhappy. I just thought maybe I pay him and then you two meet and just bam magic."
Nine rolled his eyes "I am not taking the bracelet off, I meant it when I said I didn't know how." staring at the water." So you can go away now."
Xadus leans over and hugs Nine now "No, sorry but you can't get rid of me. I am your friend, you can try to push me away, but I am not leaving. I'm sorry for what I put you through, we do stupid things for love and it doesn't make it right, but Nine you are not alone." he told him.
Nine tensed at the hug and would keep staring at the water, hearing Xadus talk. He would frown some at his words "Why....why do you keep staying around. Even though I push you away."
Xadus sighs "Because I know what it is like. I know a person in pain, I know when you push its because you are punishing yourself. I know because I did the same, I would do things to make people uncomfortable on purpose, to keep them at arms length, because I didn't think I was worth friends, worth any happiness. However Nine you are worth those things, even if you can't see it. You deserve friends, people and happiness. You need to stop beating yourself up, you have got to let go of that past. You don't have to suffer alone anymore." Nine would try to not cry as Xadus kept talking. He held his breath, those words hitting him hard.
Xadus go on "You can yell and scream and try, but I am not leaving you. I am not letting you be alone, I have lived a long long time. I manage to find happiness, if I can, then you most defiantly can and you haven't even done much. I know you hurt, I know you think you are unworthy. I am so sorry for what Basalisk did to make you this way, for what that demon Astaroth did to you when he forced you to kill those people, how your father tried to take your will. Nine I am so sorry for what you have endured in such a short time, I know it seems so bleak, I know it seems like there is no point. However I am here to tell you, you are worth it, you are worthy of happiness."
Nine closed his eyes listening still, few blood tears rolling down his cheek. Before he lean against Xadus, the Elf would stroke his hair "you are worthy Nine." he cooed to him. "I promise you, you are worthy. Don't put thought to what others think, their thoughts don't matter." Nine would murmur "Thank you." to the Elf. Xadus would smile to him "No need to thank me." hugs him tight. Markiss was not far, but he just watched and observed to make sure Xadus was safe, listening to their conversation. He sighs and turns to walk away, seeing as Xadus was ok, didn't look like Nine was going to do anything to him. He talk later about that with the Elf, but for now he give them some space, thinking that Elf was waaay to nice.
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