Emotional aftermath

After a brutal encounter with his uncle, Star was a mess of things now. He could feel all spectrums of the emotions that were. It wasn’t like one emotion a day either, it was all of them at the same time. He didn’t know how to tell each apart, this was all new and scary to him. He managed to run away, but he didn’t know where to go and was mixed with feelings. He went to the only person he thought would understand or atleast help him. He ran to Azeract, he heard that Azeract was staying in an inn near a village.  So he went there and found his room, banging on the door. Tears running down his face and he wasn’t even sure why.

Azeract who was reading a book heard the banging and raised a brow. It was almost like a deja vu type deal. Especially when he opened the door to find Star, but this time something was wrong and he knew it. He’d bring Star into his room, seeing the tears running down his cheeks and noticing that he was trembling. This was a different side, one that just tugged at Azeract heart. He would seat Star at the edge of his bed and sit next to him. “What happen? Why are you crying?” he didn’t even know Star could cry. Star shrugged to him “I don’t even know why.”

“My uncle claimed my mind was messed up, he did this to me and now I can’t stop feeling these strange things. My mind feels like it’s going to explode along with my body.” Azeract looked at him with sympathy.

“What about your mind is messed up?” Azeract would ask, curious about Gabriels reasoning.

“He claims not feeling emotion wasn’t normal. I already told him I prefer to not feel emotions.” wiping his cheeks as he spoke.

Azeract raises a brow “So you now feel emotions?” He smiled “ Star there is nothing wrong with that. Besides, life is pretty boring without them. I have been trying to tell you this.”

Star stared at Azeract “You left, you don’t get to say anything about them.” a little bit of anger in his tone. Azeract was starting to realize that maybe he wasn’t sure how to handle them, how to control them.

“Star are you mad at me for leaving? I told you I was leaving cause there was nothing for me back home.” trying to explain it to Star, who just gave a hurt look.

 “I was back home, am I nothing to you?’ he asked him. Azeract blinks a few times and then looks away. “You were with my sister.” Star just rolled his eyes. “Yeah well she seemed like a logical choice….she could give children.”

Azeract shook his head “There is more to it then just birthing kids. Besides, you can not get mad for me leaving. Had I known…..” he trails off for a moment. Now thinking of what he almost said and found himself pondering his own emotions.

Star looks at Azeract and leans in to him “Had you known what?” he asked him softly, staring into Azeract eyes. Azeract staring back and felt his heart jump at his chest, he blushes almost a loss for words “I...its just….I mean…..well…….Had...had I known that yo…” But was cut off when Star leaned in to kiss him.

Azeract slowly push Star back and would look down "I...I can't Star..you are mixed up and don't know how you feel. " he tells him. "You can sleep here, but...we are just friends." standing up as he walked away from him, needing fresh air himself or he choke right in front of Star and probably send mix signals. Star looking down as he didn't understand any of this and now feeling betrayed from all fronts.